I have decided to start a blog, a journal, whatever you want to call it. I need a place to write my thoughts and because this is 2012 and I happen to own a Laptop I figured this would be the perfect outlet. Todays date is May 26th 2012. Im sitting in my Girlfriends house in Southern New Jersey. Shes in the kitchen cooking for a memorial day party we are going to at 4 O clock. I helped her last night with cooking. I made a rockin' pasta salad. Cooking is kinda my thing alongside music. I am a culinary Arts graduate and aspiring chef but currently unemployed and trying to start my own catering business. Anyways.. tonights party should be good. I just hope there isnt any stupid fucking drama. I HATE drama.. of all sorts. I have been living with my Girlfriend for a month now and I have noticed that I have taken up drinking a little more then usual. Its not because of her though. I know it. Its honestly because of the life I led before staying with her i think... I am taking this whole thing as a relief. A sigh of relief and I am drinking to numb the constant thoughts of family issues and self failures.. I am NOT an alcoholic.. I just think its a phase. Maybe I will stick to ice water and juice tonight.. LOL Get the fuck outta here. Like that will happen.


My self note for 5/26/12:

   "If I am selfish for wanting more, than why is it everyone works so hard to have everything?"